For most of my life I have been very angry; mostly at myself but also towards those nearest to me. I’ve never hit anyone or
anything. But I have shouted and screamed; gone very red in the face; paced up
and down rooms like a raging bull; and probably caused a few people to be quite
scared. The inward anger caused the depression; the outward caused a marriage
to fail.
It has taken a few prayer ministry sessions
but much of the anger has by now dissolved. I can still get tense at times but
rarely does it spill over into heated outbursts. So while I cannot claim to be
anger-free I can say that I am a whole lot better.
But here’s the thing: I haven’t learnt to
control my anger; I haven’t been taught a technique to keep it in check when it
rises. Much of it just isn’t there any longer.
From time to time in Magistrate Courts we
send defendants on anger management courses as part of their sentence. Now I’m
sure these are well run courses that have a positive effect but I long to tell
people, ‘You don’t have to control it; you can actually be healed of it’.
Any other angry people out there?
It’s my birthday this week and I’m posting
some more personal stuff on the blog.